I like: Music, Poetry, Design and paint, Winter, Rain, Photography, Egyptian Civilization, Celtic Art, Gothic Subculture, Vampires, Angels, Cemeteries, Crosses, all about the occult…
I hate: Rules, Lies, Private profiles, My enemies, Summer, Spicy food.
Dear Diary
I want to confess my secrets, my dead life to you. I feel something strange in me, something that almost nobody can understand. I'm living alone, locked in myself for a very long time. Love and life are a disease to my soul.
My only wish is to die because I want to stop this infernal pain and I know I will never be happy. I'm feeling extremely sick of this fucking world. Every day I live among the dead, in complete darkness. I live inside my thoughts, dreaming about death, suicide, blood… horrible things and the insanity of my mind doesn't scare me, not a little bit. Music is my special friend, the only thing able to free my soul of this useless body, the only thing that gives me strength to move on. Yeah, I know it sounds crazy but it's all I feel inside me. I don't fucking care of what people say about me…
"the music still playing when life dies" Think about it!
Rachel C.
Thoughts
"Why do we love the death and the blood? My dear, you need only look into your own pain-filled soul to find out." Anonymous
"The darkest souls are not those which choose to exist within the hell of the abyss, but those which choose to break free from the abyss and move silently among us." Halloween Movie (2007)
"People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over." Jim Morrison
"I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude." Henry Thoreau
"I will show that nothing can happen more beautiful than death." Walt Whitman
"The world is the mirror of myself dying." Henry Miller
The Lake by Edgar Allan Poe
In spring of youth it was my lot To haunt of the wide world a spot The which I could not love the less- So lovely was the loneliness Of a wild lake, with black rock bound, And the tall pines that towered around.
But when the Night had thrown her pall Upon that spot, as upon all, And the mystic wind went by Murmuring in melody- Then- ah then I would awake To the terror of the lone lake.
Yet that terror was not fright, But a tremulous delight- A feeling not the jewelled mine Could teach or bribe me to define- Nor Love- although the Love were thine.
Death was in that poisonous wave, And in its gulf a fitting grave For him who thence could solace bring To his lone imagining- Whose solitary soul could make An Eden of that dim lake.
Favorite Bands
Metal: HIM, Nightwish, Dimmu Borgir, Theatres Des Vampires, Lacuna Coil, The 69 Eyes, Krypteria, Epica, Eyes of Eden, Sirenia, Imperia, Aesma Daeva, Apocalyptica, Symphony X, Children of Bodom, Dark Funeral, Susperia, Moonspell, Twilight Ophera, Empyrium, Theatre Of Tragedy, Dark Lunacy, Delain, Eternal Tears Of Sorrow, Tristania, Echoes of Eternity, Mortal Love, Within Temptation, Type O Negative, Linkin Park, Kittie, My Ruin, and many more bands!
Rock: Nemesea, The Birthday Massacre, Evanescence, London After Midnight, The Rasmus…
Industrial/Electro-goth: Suicide Commando, GothMinister, Diary of Dreams, Tamtrum, Das Ich, Pain, DeathStars, Zombie Girl…
Solo Artists: Tarja Turunen, Ville Valo, Cristina Scabbia, Jon Bon Jovi…
Old School: Bon Jovi, Joy Division, The Doors, Bauhaus, The Cure, Pink Floyd, AC ϟ DC, Nirvana, Queen, Black Sabbath, Nosferatu, Duran Duran, Scorpions, Aerosmith, The Rolling Stones, Pet Shop Boys, Supertramp…
Favorite Movies
Saw Sweeney Todd The Nightmare Before Christmas Corpse Bride Book of shadows: Blair Witch 2 The Ring Halloween Hostel The Craft Bram Stoker's Dracula The Crow Constantine The Devil's Advocate Van Helsing End of Days Blade The Bone Collector
Interview With the Vampire Pirates of the Caribbean Edward Scissorhands Charlie and the Chocolate Factory Dead Poets Society Final Destination The Doors Harry Potter Half Light I Know What You Did Last Summer Signs Matrix Anne Frank: The Whole Story The Day After Tomorrow The Mummy The Mummy Return Vampires Los Muertos
I understand what true pain is. Waking up without a soul; Existing forever, but always alone. I know where sorrow is born. In icy depths of Man's empty heart; His spirit of love to tear apart. I see misery in every face. Knowing no mercy, nor joy, nor peace; Only death can bring them ease. I hear loathing in every word. Every breath a burning pain; Lies, deceit, and wraths disdain. I feel hate inside mankind. Rotting filth, disease, decay; In their defense, nothing to say. I taste the rotting flesh of sin. Toxic putrescence, bitter and vile; Evil by nature, the mind of a child. I am the truth in all that you feel. My humanity stolen, compassion is gone; I am that which you know is wrong. I am in misery and darkness complete. Knowing no other than that of my soul; Destined for solitude, I am always alone.
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